Today being April 10th 2023:

Today, April 10th 2023, is the death anniversary of my Mum.  It's a tricky day as Mum was a covert narcissist who wrecked me in every way for 23-24 years.  This left PTSD in it's wake.  On Facebook when memories come up, such as photos, I notice details others may not notice/ignore/pay attention to etc...  Such as below:



Her right hand on my right shoulder.  Bearing in mind my right shoulder has always been the worst.  It's dislocated over 15 times.  When Mum made me have shoulder length hair, that I obviously had to wash often (I'm right handed too), that further wrecked that shoulder.  It was already well known to be my worst shoulder when this photo was taken.
Look at her tighter hold on my shoulder.  Compare that to my left hand loosely over her shoulder, relaxed.  I was anything but relaxed.  I was severely sleep deprived/stressed out/angry to the extreme/I already knew I'd end up with PTSD due to her etc...

There are a few other photos where she's holding my hand, tightly (to the point she has white knuckles).  Or our arms are behind our backs, she's got tight hold on my arms.